well it's a good start.

At the beginning of a new year, many people decide to make “New Year’s resolutions. I decided this year that I’m not making any. People who make resolutions are gung ho about it for all of a week or two and end up falling horrifically short of ever accomplishing their goal. This year I’ve decided that I should, to the best of my ability, be in a state of constant improvement. It doesn’t have to be big changes. Just some kind of constant forward motion. Some of the multiple goals(not resolutions) I have are, Journaling more, practice poi more, start working out again, dancing more, and becoming more self-reliant through sustainability practices. I’m not going to set any accomplish by dates. I’m just going to take things one step at a time and do the best I can. Then there’s no chance of failure. SO….
Journaling- I do better remembering to journal when I write to do lists. So step one is going to be, making a habit of writing to- do lists.

It’s said it takes 21 days to build a new habit.
I can also make sure to schedule time for practicing poi, dancing, and trying to learn new skills.

A part of goal with journaling more is to have more substantial stuff to blog about. So, I’ll periodically keep the blog up-to-date with my progress. 1/16/11

I will not censor my life

I've lived a pretty messed up life it's true. I won't apologize for anything in my life. I've done things I regret but I am not ashamed of any of it. Life is ugly, messy, dirty, beautiful, and amazing all at the same time. I have problems like anyone else. I have amazing stories to tell, just like any one else. I am sorry if my life and writing about it offends your moral sensibilities. What's happened to me could happen to anyone else. I'm not unique or special in any way. Life is ugly. Life is not always sunshine and rainbows. There are many storms and I've weathered them all. I've fallen many times. I always pick myself up and keep going. I am not one to ever give up. You never know how strong you are until that's the only choice you have left. My mom used to tell me "You are so stubborn, why don't you use it for some positive in your life." And as I've grown a little older I have. I am young enough to still love life and old enough to know that I will always be learning and growing. I know I'm not always right. I know I don't always make the right choices. I take life as it comes and roll with the punches. I'm not perfect and no one else is either. I am the only person who has to live with me for the rest of my life and I'm okay with myself. I even love myself which is a lot more than a lot of people can say. I love people and I hate them and have the same reasons for both. Yeah, I'm a little crazy, but who isn't? This is our life, our reality and every one different. It makes life a beautiful tapestry of a story. I love my story and I love other peoples. I love hearing what people have to say. I love hearing different viewpoints and stories. I want to know as many people inside and out as I can. I love the connection. I love the story. Most of all I love the journey.